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His name was Velinzer. I had had boyfriends before him but it wasn’t the same. My life changed when Vinny and I started going out. I had changed. I actually liked going to school. I was happy. I wanted it to last forever.
Vinny and I were always friends. When me and Vinny started dating we were more like a couple then the other kids in our middle school. We cared about one another.
Everything was going great. Until I started to change back to my old self. I started acting like I did before we started dating. I was always depressed and leaving people in the dark. Our relationship started falling apart. We were always arguing and mad at each other.
It was all up to me to save our relationship. But I didn’t know if I could. We never got to see each other or talk. We only saw each other at school and our friends were always around so we could never talk.
It has been over four months since me and Vinny started going out. I still have trouble talking to him about our relationship, but we manage. We have almost broken up a few times, but we love each other too much to leave one another. People have told us so much to break up, but we just can’t go through the pain.
People always ask me if I love him and I say I’m not sure. I think I do, but if I don’t then I hate to know what love is. I miss him when we are only apart for a few minutes. And he has already asked me to marry him after high-school. I thought it was all to fast, but I told him yes. I know he loves me even if I have doubts but I still know what I mean to him. I feel like I am not worth it sometimes. I think I am just holding him back from having a life, but he tells me different.
We go out when we can and talk when we can. But I know one day I will be able to do more. I just have to be patient and take my time. One day we will graduate and hopefully we will not take different paths. I want to get married and start a life with him. But if he wants to go down a different path before we get to graduation then he can. I may love him but I want what is best for him.
Everyone thinks that this won’t work out because we are only in middle school, but I hope different. I don’t want to go through middle school and high school and then loose him. All that time would have been a waste of time but worth it.