StoryPen

Now I am faced with a hard choice. Will someone show me a direction because I’m stuck in between two walls.  Walls which are closing slowly.  Soon I will have no way to turn.  I need to choose fast, yet I need to make a smart decision.  My adrenaline is racing, mind is spinning, nerves are shot.  So how am I supposed to think?  OK, let’s slow it down, see the factors.  Old friends are coming back around…  Should I trust the ones who dropt me and left me high and dry?  They left me feeling scared and alone.  It would be so easy to forgive and forget.  It seems they just take advantage of me…leave and I take them back.  Sometime this has got to stop so they can realize how much I’m worth.  But if I do they might not come back.  These options are flashing through my mind but none seem right.  No matter what I choose it’s going to turn out bad.  So…what do I do…I guess just follow my heart and it will guide me.  That’s how it usually works, right…  This isn’t a movie, it’s real life.  It doesn’t always have a happy ending. You just have to deal with your problems, conquer your fears.  This is the only way to succeed in this world.  Which brings me back to my difficult decision.  Take my friends back and chance getting hurt again
Or
Accept my new ones and be satisfied?  Forget all who have treated me wrong and used me for what I’ve worked long to get.  There is always a chance he could change and return to the one everybody likes.  Oh how I wish this has happened in the time we’ve been apart.  And had some time to think.  Time will only tell.  One more chance I will give to see if he really can turn his life back around and be the friend I remember.  A wish that I wish could come true.  Then life would be back to normal, life would be complete.
                                                                                John